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The Story So Far… – swell

The Story So Far…

Outdoor Dinner
Veggie Skewers on the Grill
Tempeh Burgers with Mustard Dill Sauce
Ginger Coconut Biscuit and Green Tea Ice Cream Sandwich
Green Tea Ice Cream

Like a lot of food bloggers, I try not to get *too* personal here (although I’m not really that bothered by sharing information).  But for three-quarters of a year, I haven’t been taking very good care of myself emotionally or physically.  Sure, you might think with the little snippets you see posted here that I eat healthy all the time and make time to go to Sweden for 12 days, but to tell the truth, I should have gotten really sick somewhere along the way.  I’ve been strangely lucky.  Between working two jobs I’ve had very little energy to work on personal projects (like this blog), to cook at home, and to be mindful and present in my relationships and with myself.  I started drinking coffee every day because I knew I wouldn’t take a break to eat some real food at work, and by the time my workday was done I was reaching for prepackaged food (usually things I’d made at work) to get something in my body before I slept or sat doing nothing for the rest of the day.  My partner missed eating homecooked meals together, we spent a lot of money eating out instead, and I was so stressed out at work that I spent most of my shifts struggling not to burst into tears.

There comes a time when you have to set priorities straight, and I could not take care of myself in the best way possible while continuing to work my full-time job.  I was in too deep in the stress of working too much for too long.  Though it was a very difficult decision to make–because there are many perks to working full-time at my one job including getting to work with some of the most amazing people I know–in a short while I’ll be down to one part-time job with no health insurance and no discounted groceries.  And you know what?  It feels GREAT.  I’m the happiest I’ve been for a long time, I’m excited to fall in love with food in my own house again, and I’m so excited that I’ll be able to spend more time with the people I love.

Already I’ve been celebrating with my very special ladyfriend, making dinner together and eating outside by candlelight, and I have the awesome opportunity to be a recipe tester again, this time for Ricki, for whom I would fly to Canada and, if she wasn’t happily married and I wasn’t happily partnered, ask her to marry me because of her recipes.  For serious.  Those two sweet treats pictured up top are from her upcoming anti-candida recipe e-book, and they are delicious!

I’ve already got plans in the works for some recipes I want to post, and I’ve even started going through my mess of notebooks and scattered computer files to resurrect my own new recipe zine.  So thanks for bearing with me on this bumpy journey towards a happier me, and hopefully the happiness will spread like a beautiful infection (really, are there any positive counterparts to words like that?  I can’t come up with any) to anyone who’s having a rough time of it lately.  I miss you guys and gals ;)

28 Responses to “The Story So Far…”

  1. Blaine says:

    Happy to have you back! I admire the decision you made for your happiness and health.

  2. Amy says:

    I also admire your decision. I recently made the same choice and quit my full-time job because the demands were too high and the lack of appreciation was non-existent. Not having benefits is certainly an adjustment. The greatest realization I have made is that my emotional and physical health are much more important than any job could ever be. Spending more time with my partner and working on meaningful projects is wonderful! I hope you are enjoying your life more and keeping happy!! Happiness has been a struggle for me for a LONG time and quitting my job was the first step toward feeling better. I am looking forward to your recipes and photos! All the best!

    • A-K says:

      Sounds like we have some similar experiences… and yes, emotional health IS physical health, which no job or health plan can ensure. Thanks, Amy!

  3. Sarah says:

    I am so glad to hear you are working toward a happier you, my dear. You deserve it. :) Heres to enjoying the small things, and to making beautiful food to share with beautiful people.

  4. Kiersten says:

    I’m glad to hear that you are doing well again. I hope you keep taking care of yourself and things continue to look up!

  5. Mihl says:

    Good for you! I am glad you figured it out and thank you for sharing.

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  7. Lexi says:

    So happy for you! I’ve missed you!!

  8. Erin says:

    Glad to hear you are taking care of yourself, and looking forward to upcoming posts!

  9. Mandee says:

    Good work, A.K! You need to put yourself first and take care of your health and wellbeing. Sounds like you are enjoying your time a lot more now and I definitely think it’s a good thing that you’re working on another zine, woo!

    • A-K says:

      I think it’s a good thing too! I’ve been wanting to work on it for AGES, and this is the first step toward making it happen! Thanks, Mandee!

  10. Carrie says:

    Glad you are taking care of yourself – finding balance is so important!

  11. Ricki says:

    So glad to see you back–and congratulations on taking such an important step to improve your life! :D

    And thank you, thank you for saying what might just be the nicest thing anyone’s ever said about me. Since the HH and I aren’t technically married, that’s also probably the closest thing I’ll ever get to a proposal. ;) Hugs to you–and come visit Toronto already!

    • A-K says:

      Aww, Ricki, it ain’t no thing… You just have this magical ability to create the best flavor combinations I’ve ever had before I knew they were my favorites! And Toronto is definitely on the more happening side than not… I’ll keep you posted!

  12. Shayne says:

    Congrats on recognizing the best decision for you and making it. Stepping back and seeing these things is often the hardest part, for me at least. I look forward to reading about this new and better phase of your life!

    • A-K says:

      Thanks, Shayne! I’m glad my little adventures are of interest to people out there, and stepping back and letting go is definitely difficult. But oh so worth it!

  13. andrea devon says:

    good stuff a-k. i know it’s hard to ‘give up’ that whole jobby thing but health and happiness really are the most important things and it take some effort to make them happen. i always think of this tom robbins quote from the film one giant leap: he says (basically) people on their deathbeds never wished for money or time at work, they always wish for more time with their loved ones, for travel, for experiencing life. i love your bloggy and check it all the time… i am glad you will be back more (but take your time). aloha, andrea

  14. Megan says:

    Good job on taking care of yourself! That can be such a hard decision and I’m glad it’s working out so well. :)

  15. Courtney says:

    Congrats on the decision–it sounds like it was the right one for you :-) I am happy for you!

    I am testing for Ricki too! We will have to compare notes, lol.


  16. Veronica says:

    I’m happy for you, you should never forsake yourself, mind nor body for a job. Happiness rules and the universe will provide for you.

  17. I think this is great! I know it must of been hard, but putting yourself is so important!! You deserve the best!!!

  18. Crystal says:

    Good for you! I love your blog and as a fellow blogger, I know it’s really tough to keep all areas of our lives going at full blast. I hope things get sorted out to your satisfaction. Your blog will always be in my feed, so it will be a special treat to read whenever you post.

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